Love My Airman

Long Time...No Blog!

2009-05-31T17:25:00.000-07:00

It's been so long since I blogged!

A little update:

Adrian came home the middle of July last year. It was great to see him walk off that plane!

Life went on as normal for awhile. He didn't have work when he got back, but thankfully I had saved a little while he was gone. So we were doing ok. Christmas was rough.

Then February came and he went off to 7 level school. When he got back from there he decided to go on a TDY to give us some financial stability. Our money situation is fine now, but I hate having him gone. He's about 8 hours away from home, so it's a little difficult to just hop in the car and visit! He's been gone since the beginning of March.

I'll be meeting him in Fort Worth this coming weekend for a couple's weekend! My kids are staying with my parents for the weekend! I'm so excited about getting to see him. We haven't really had any time to ourselves since before he left.

Also, we are going to Las Vegas to visit his family on the 26th of June. We are going to stay there for about 10 days. I'm thrilled! We will be celebrating our 12th anniversary while we are there. My inlaws are going to keep the kids so we can spend the night at a hotel on the strip that night!

School is going good. I was just awarded my Associate of Arts degree with highest honors! I'll be transferring to UCA in the fall to finish my Bachelor's degree in Early Childhood Education. I'm excited about starting the classes that actually pertain to my degree!!

The kids' last day of school is this Wednesday. We have a new above ground pool, so that should help keep them happy this summer...hopefully. I'll be having to take Jessica to summer school for about 6 weeks but it's only 3 days a week for 3 hours a day.

Well, that's pretty much the last year in a nutshell. :)

Life is just crazy! :)

HE'S ALMOST HOME!!

2008-06-25T10:24:00.000-07:00

It won't be long till the love of my life is back in my arms! I am SO excited I can't hardly stand it!

The kids have been behaving, well, not so greatly as of late! I think they are bored since they got out of school. Plus, they are ready for their dad to come home.

My dad and I have been working on our dining room and living room remodel. We've been trying to get it finished before Adrian gets home. I'm anxious to see what Adrian thinks about what all we've done. He knows about most of it, but there are some things that are going to be a surprise to him!

Our vacation went REALLY well! I was really worried about the plane ride, but the kids did great! Walking from one end of the airport to the next was not so much fun, but we managed! My inlaws were great. They watched my kids for me and helped me so much! They tried to give me a break, since I haven't had much of one since my hubby left. We did some shopping and hung out by the pool quite a bit. It was just nice to relax.

Adrian and I will be celebrating 11 years of marriage this Saturday. I'm a little sad that he won't be here on our anniversary. I shouldn't feel too bad. He'll be home soon, but I would still love to have him here on that day. Mom and I plan on doing some shopping for pictures for the living room Saturday, so maybe that will help occupy my time. Adrian's supposed to call too. That will be nice to at least hear his voice. Plus, he's off work that day and it's a Saturday, so it won't count against my minutes. We usually get to talk for about an hour. So maybe we'll get to talk longer this time!

I will update more once he's home safe and sound!

Anticipation

2008-05-06T06:53:00.000-07:00

I am so excited to say that I have less than 2 months to go till my hubby is back in my arms!! I'm trying to keep myself busy, but this time seems to be dragging! It seems like the beginning went by SO fast! So why now does it have to slow down??? I made a homecoming sign and had it laminated so I can hang it on the window outside. I plan on making a few more signs...some for the yard and some for me and the kids to hold while we wait for him at the base.

The kids will be getting out of school in less than a month. I was kind of dreading that last month or so before he gets home while they are out of school. But the kids and I will be flying to Las Vegas the second week of June to see my in-laws. This will be the first time I've flown with 3 kids by myself, so I'm a little nervous about that. I'm sure they'll be fine. So I think that vacation will help keep them busy and happy. It will also give me some babysitters and adult interaction which will help my sanity!

I miss my husband SO much, but things have been better since I last posted. The kids are doing well in school. Maybe it's because we are so close to having him home, I'm not sure. But I'm glad they've been behaving better. Jessica has her moments. I feel like she blames me sometimes for her daddy not being here. So I just try to give her some extra attention and she seems okay after that.

I'm so anxious about what he's going to think about me and the kids when he gets home. I'm already getting butterflies when I think about seeing him again and about having him hold me again! I can't wait to feel his strong arms around me!

I can't wait to see the look on my kids' faces when they see him walking toward us!

The anticipation of waiting for him is making me crazy! I'm seriously about to lose my mind! :)

46 days down...way too many left to go!!

2008-02-17T14:33:00.000-08:00

Adrian has been gone for almost 7 weeks! Looking back it seems like it's gone by pretty fast, but when I was in the midst it was so slow!! I miss him so much. Everywhere around me there are reminders of him. First thing in the morning, I wake up and look at his side of the bed. The only thing there is my son, who won't sleep in his own bed. I go to the shower and he left his body wash in there. I can't help but open it up and smell it. Sometimes it makes me cry, but most days it makes me smile. When I get home from dropping off the kids at school, the house is so quiet. It's too quiet at times that I have to listen to music or watch tv. Speaking of music...there is ALWAYS a song on the radio that reminds me of my man. As I cook dinner at night, I think about whether he ate a decent meal. I know before I know it, he'll be home but it can't be soon enough for me!

He just called!! Yay!!

Semi-Single and Not Loving It

2008-01-04T15:43:00.000-08:00

Well, it's official. My husband left for Iraq on Wednesday. That was the hardest day. We drove down to Forth Worth to see him off. He left early in the morning so we didn't really have a long time for goodbyes. They said "ok, you have 5 minutes to say your goodbyes and then the families need to leave." I guess that's the military for you. I suppose the quicker goodbye was better than a long drawn out one. I think that would have been much worse. My parents were down there too for the Cotton Bowl, so they rode back with me. The drive back was ok. The kids were fine, but I was just ready to get home to my own house. I haven't talked to my hubby since the day before yesterday. He sent me a quick email yesterday, but other than that I have no idea how he is. I think that's what's bothering me the most today. I've had a really hard day. I just feel so sad. I'm betting he made is safely, otherwise I would already know if he didn't. So the old saying, "no news is good news" is true, I guess.

The kids went back to school today. I was going to let them stay home, but then after yesterday I changed my mind. I felt like they needed to get back to their normal routine. It was good for them. They all had good days at school today. Their teachers all know that their daddy is gone, and they've all been really sweet.

I will be starting back to school on the 14th. I'm glad to have a week to myself before I jump right into a new semester. This semester I'm taking 14 hours. I'll be at school Monday-Friday. That's going to be a challenge, but I'm sure I'll be okay. I'm just praying my kids stay well. I can't afford to stay home with sick kids. My hubby would normally be here to take care of sick children so I wouldn't have to miss school. I'm taking Biology, Physical Science, Introduction to Music, and Geography. After this semester I'll have my Associate of Arts degree. I'll then be transferring to a four year college to finish my Bachelor's degree in Early Childhood Education. I'm anxious to begin taking the classes that actually teach me how to be a teacher. So far I've just been taking my basics.

I hope everyone enjoyed their holidays!

Long Time No Blog

2007-11-27T14:10:00.000-08:00

It's been so long since I blogged. I've been so busy with school and family and spending time with my hubby. Jessica turned 8 on Thanksgiving Day. I cannot believe she is that old. I mean I'm too young to have children that old! I have 3 weeks of school left including finals. I can't believe how fast this semester has gone by.

Adrian and I went to Branson and spent the weekend together. It was just the two of us. We went to Silver Dollar City while we were there. We had such a great time together. But I was fighting back tears all weekend. I couldn't help thinking how this would be our last weekend together before he had to leave. He left yesterday for his pre-deployment training.

So I'm writing my blog in blue, because that's how I'm feeling. He'll be gone for about a month. He'll be back just before Christmas. Then he'll be leaving for his deployment soon after that. It makes me really sad.

Today, I felt like I was just going through the motions. I didn't eat all day until I got home from school. I felt like I was in a fog all day long. I'll be so glad when this semester is over.

So Much to Do...So Little Time

2007-10-22T09:09:00.000-07:00

I love the holidays, but this year the holidays are coming too quick for me. We are in the middle of remodeling our kitchen/dining room area. I'm hoping we'll be done in time. My MIL informed me that we are probably having Thanksgiving at MY house. I really don't mind having everyone here. I just want my kitchen to be finished. Also, school is keeping me very busy, so I haven't been able to keep up with my housework like I would prefer. My MIL is helping, but no one does it like I like. LOL. We are counting down to d-day and I'm not happy about that. It's too soon. We've known for some time, so it seemed so far away. But now that it's getting closer, I'm getting a little panicky. I worry about how I'm going to manage with 3 kids, the house, school, and church too. I worry about how much I'm going to miss my honey. We've never been apart for this long a period of time. I know I need to be strong for my kiddos. But we all know how emotional I am. I don't know how I'll do it. I registered for my classes for next semester. I'll be in school Monday through Friday. I just pray no one gets sick so I don't have to miss any school. I'm thankful my parents are close by. I worry about how my kids will be. Maegan is the one who feels like she has to take care of everyone. I have a journal for her to write in when she needs to. Jessica is the one I worry about the most, though. With her disability she is one that needs structure and upsets easily if her schedule is disrupted. Plus, she is extremely attached to her daddy. I've discussed upcoming events with her teacher and she's willing to help as much as possible. Ryan is my little fireball. I like to call him Dash from the Incredibles. He runs everywhere he goes and I have a hard time keeping up with him. I pray his behavior doesn't get any worse than it already is. I might have a lot less hair by the time my hubby gets back. I'll be busy with school, so that will help the time pass quickly...I hope. I have wonderful support through Christian Military Wives message board. The ladies on there are amazing. Also, my best friend in the world is also a military wife dealing with the same things. I don't know what I'd do without her!

Attention Deficit/Hyper Activity Disorder???

2007-09-26T10:32:00.001-07:00

The past few weeks since my 4 year old has been in pre-k have been very chaotic. In his classroom they have a traffic light system. Green is for good behavior. Yellow is for when they do something that breaks the rules. They have to go to the "think about it" chair for a few minutes and then if the behavior improves they get moved back to the green light. If the behavior does NOT improve they have to move their name to the red light. If this occurs, the child will get a note sent home to his/her parents. My little boy has been getting on red light 3 to 4 times a week. He's is not listening to his teachers, he is running from them, and ripping art off of the walls in the hallway. There are other things he is doing that concern me. I'm concerned for his safety while he's there. He gets disciplined for bringing home these notes. We've tried the reward system. Nothing seems to work. I've been debating about talking to his doctor about it. He's a VERY active little boy and I've been wondering if maybe he has ADHD. I hate to even think about this, but I really think he needs some help. My hubby will be leaving for deployment in a few short months, and I would love to have this situation under control before his departure. I'm about at my witt's end! I have two girls who are older. So for a long time, I've thought well maybe it's because he's a boy, but I have friends who have boys. Their boys are active, but can listen and obey the rules. I really want to do the right thing. He's really a sweet little boy and I love him to pieces!!!

This is my little man!

Countdown to Alone Time

2007-09-24T12:45:00.000-07:00

I am so excited about going out of town in less than 3 weeks! My hubby has drill, so I'll be traveling with him. We will be going to his unit's annual picnic. We go and sit around and wait for the commander to tell everyone they can go. Last year was actually fun, but after a couple of hours the kids and I were ready to leave. But NOPE, the military tells you when you can and can't go.
My mother-in-law has offered to watch the kids for us. I am desperately needing time with my husband...just the two of us. I don't think we'll get the chance again for a LONG while. Anyway, ever since my MIL has been here, our couple time has basically not existed. She feels the need to spend every waking minute with him when he's off work. She calls him everyday when she's not at our house just to see what he's doing. She didn't do that when she was in Vegas (where she lives). I feel like telling her to cut the cord already...he's 37 years old! I'm feeling a little jealous, I guess, but I'm his wife! She's staying for an indefinite amount of time...whatever THAT means. So I'm sending up constant prayers for my sanity and also that God will change my attitude towards her. I love her, don't get me wrong. She's been my MIL for 10 years. But she just gets on my nerves. You see why I'm praying that God will change my attitude towards her.

Update: School has gotten a little better for me. I wish they required you to take a class on time management though! I am the worst at procrastinating. I have really good intentions to finish things before they are actually due. I don't guess it's the intentions that count though...LOL!

I hope everyone has a great week!

My Life at this Moment!

2007-09-04T14:17:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling a little overwhelmed this semester! Ok...so maybe A LOT overwhelmed. When I register for classes, I try to consider how much work will be involved in each class. I have speech, elementary spanish, college algebra, and Arkansas history. My history class is no big deal. I have an awesome teacher and he makes it very interesting. The only thing is we only get our grades from our tests. That can be a good thing or a bad thing. For me, it's ok, because I actually take time to do the study guide and study! There are those who forget they are actually in college. They don't put the time in to do the work and wonder why they fail the class. Anyway, my rant about those kind of people is a whole other blog topic...hehee!

As for the other three classes I'm taking, College Algebra is the hardest for me right now. I'm totally confused. I'll definitely be spending some time very soon in the tutoring lab. I'm thankful my school provides one free of charge. My Spanish class is okay. If I can get past the creepy teacher and the dullness of the class. I almost fell asleep this morning. I pride myself on working hard in my classes. I've never had one that made me this way. My speech class has an extreme amount of work in it. I've had handouts and worksheets every class. Add reading the chapters and preparing for speeches on top of that, and you can see I'm going to be very busy!

Don't get me wrong...I LOVE school! I guess it's good I chose to get my degree in Early Childhood Education. I'll just be glad when this semester settles down. It's usually craziest in the beginning and in the end. The middle normally calms down. Thank goodness!

It doesn't help that I have 3 kids and a husband to take care of as well! Thankfully, my husband helps me tremendously. Also, I have all 3 of my kids in school now. I have the best friend in the world that is too far away, but she is an amazing encouragement to me! I call her when I need someone to tell me everything is going to be okay. She is ALWAYS there to make me laugh! I need that quite often. Thank goodness for mobile to mobile and yahoo! LOL!!

Anyway, I've rambled on enough about nothing in particular. I guess I should get to what I've been avoiding...HOMEWORK.

UTA weekend

2007-06-03T14:48:00.000-07:00

The weekend is almost over. My honey will be home in a few hours from his UTA. The kids have been pretty good. Maegan has been very helpful! She usually is, but with lots of complaining. There hasn't been much this time around. We did some spring cleaning. YUCK!! I absolutely do not like the heavy duty cleaning that has to be done every so often. I try to have the house spotless when DH gets back from drill, because I like the surpirsed look on his face! He usually expects the house to be destroyed when he gets back, because I am so busy chasing after a four year old!

I am so lucky to have such a wonderful husband! He is kind, considerate, funny, and sooo helpful!! There is rumor of deployment, so I'm not sure how I'll manage with him gone. I'm sure we will manage just fine, but it will definitely be hard. This will be our first deployment, so I'm not really sure what to expect. I'm finding circles of support, so I will have someone who knows what I'm going through. I think that will be a big help.